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Monday, 24 August 2009
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Minutes to Midnight
By Linkin Park
see relatedThis is new;
It's been more then a year since I've written in here. D:
And so much has happened with my life since actually writing in here. :p
Such as how I graduated high school :D, andddd I now work part time at Mobius!
I don't really feeeeeeeel like writing much in here. BUT. At least it's a short update.
I doubt anyone even reads this anymore hahaa.
Monday, 11 August 2008
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Currently Listening
Are You a Dreamer?
By Denison Witmer
see relatedRandom Poetry...
Acidic Lovers
Your touch is absolutely acidic.
Even if it burns me so.
And leaves eternal scars.
You still leave me there, wanting more.
This acid has left me stains of memories.
Ones that keep torturing my soul.
Day by day, I fade away.
I keep my tears hidden from the outside world lately.
In fear that I will look weak.
You don't understand how much I still love you.
And how the night time brings me deep into destruction.
This poison is killing me.
Please, won't you save me?Destroy Me
Look what you've done to me.
You've destroyed me.
I'm not even myself anymore.
I'm like the walking corpse I always said I'd be.
Time seems to be going slower.
Days keep getting longer.
And nothing is the same anymore.
So tell me why this is happening.
And why you don't seem to care.
I hate the effect you have on me.
You're like a bad drug, one that pulls you so deep into a hole you feel like you will never get out.
I have never been so broken before.
And it's all your fault.Those are from awhile back ago, figured I'd put them up now... lol
Ya.. Uhm, I'm sure you can guess who there about, ya?
Tuesday, 17 June 2008
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I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
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Little Girl
Little girl, little girl
Don't you run your sweet mouth.
Its time now.
To wait, and to see what comes next.
Is this real?
Or is it just one big illusion?Maybe it's for the best, or maybe its for the worst.
Either way she still ends up happy.
But what is this happiness?
Is it just a fake?
Or is this real too?Everytime she see's you, her heart races faster then it ever has before.
She gave up hoping years ago.
So solitude is what she seeks.BUT WAIT!
What does she do now?
Her thoughts are splattered on the walls.
However, no one see's these walls do they?
Except for one, or maybe two.
She's so afraid of what people would actually think of her.
A mask is always put on.
He has this effect on her.
Maybe he doesn't realize it.
But maybe he does.
After all, he's just like her.
Just a bit different is all.
We are all liars in this cold heartless world.
Whats another two going to hurt?
Keep your mouth shut little girl.
For now.
Monday, 01 October 2007
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I haven't written in here for quite awhile, maybe its because all of my thoughts have been so jumbled together, I know they still are. But I need to write before my brain explodes. There are so many things that I want to say write now, I just don't know where to begin, and I know that I have said that countless times.. But its so very very true.
To start off with:
I miss Helen: She's my best friend in the entire world, and yet, she is no where near me. I love her to death, and would run through fire for her. But her life is so fucking centered around Jesse, that I don't think she realizes what she's doing to her friends, mainly being me. Katie says she misses Helen too. But I know damn well she does not miss her like I miss her. I know Helen almost better then anyone, well, I used to. Lately, I don't seem to know her at all really... She's with Jesse all the time, so why bother? I can't have a decent conversation with her anymore. Wait, let me rephrase this. I never get to talk to her anymore.
A story for all: This year, at the fair I went with Morgan, Koby, and Betty. Helen wasn't there this year, I even fucking called her house like 6 times that week. And at the last chance, I left a fucking message. Not a single reply. I know she was sick. But I don't think she was that sick. So, I was standing in line for the "Yo-Yo" and Koby asked me what was wrong, and I flat out told him that I was just missing Helen, on account Helen and I have gone to the fair with each other every single year, and this year. She wasn't even there at all. *cry* I looked up at starry sky, and almost fucking cried. Because, THAT was OUR favorite ride. The sad part is, I knew where she was, she was with Jesse. She was even the one who was SO fucking excited about going to the fair. And this year, she didn't even go. *sniffs* And then it came time to take our "button picture", and everyone was in it. It was a nice picture and all, but she wasn't next to me, like every year. So there is this blank space in the back of the picture where she SHOULD be. *sigh*More about her: I just am beginning to think that she just doesn't care anymore, and that she is too caught up in Jesse. Maybe, I should just let go, and forget about it. She's such a fucking contradiction though! Last year, she was the one telling me, that I am the one who should learn to balance "friends and relationships" Look what she's doing. I know that this is all of her choice. But in a way, I know he's influencing her.. I mean, yeah, sure I'm with Koby all the time. But I would take the time to go hang with her... She doesn't. She doesn't even call me. *sniff* I am so disappointed in her too, she apparently has dropped out of h/s and is going to go get her GED. PATHETIC. I can't believe it. She's so smart. She's just lazy. *sigh*.. But the worst part of it all is, that I can't do a single fucking thing. I just... miss her.
In other news: Me and Koby are doing a little better. He's become my best friend, the one that I can come to, and talk about anything with. Since Helen isn't there anymore.. And I broke down in front of him last Wednesday.. I've just been rather upset lately; I miss my friends and even my fucking Dad. Where that came from, I'm not sure. Its just hitting me now I guess.. *sigh* School is okay this year though, which I'm happy about..
I guess thats really all I have to say. It felt good to get all of that out though...
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- Name: Heather
- Country: United States
- State: Washington
- Metro: Spokane
- Birthday: 1/3/1991
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 6/14/2005
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Hey there, :] I'm Heather, I'm 18, graduated, annnnnd looking to go to Glen Dow :D I never really write on here anymore, buttt if i do, its important?
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